Explanation

Well from my last short blog I expect that anyone reading this will think that I do not like the fact that my daughter is engaged. This is not the case. I know sometimes that you have to jump feet first into something or it passes you by and if she feels that Eric is the "ONE" then I am very happy for her, but, can I be cautious....I think that some of my wanting to be cautious comes from my 4th child who up and married a girl and then she ended up leaving him about 2 months later. It took just about a year to get the divorce finalized. I do not know what possessed him. Then I have another son #2 who was married for just over 3 years and is now divorced too. This one has produced a grandchild. The relationship has caused for hard feelings with myself to my exdaughter in law. Mainly because she is lazy and will not even try to support herself or her daugther but instead is laying around the mans apt that broke my son and her up. Well not totally broke them up but had a big hand in it.SO I worry that Jenny is jumping feet first into something too soon. They say a June wedding is what they are looking at. This makes me feel better because if they get to that point it will be a bit over 6 months of dealing with each other and planning. I also suppose I am apprehensive about a marriage at this point because both are in the US NAVY. This may pose a difficult experience for them when the time comes to be separated. And then the final reason (which has no bearing on her) I really wanted to have an adventure when I was young but was talked out of several things just because I was a girl...or shouldn't because it was not something a good girl would do...or a mormon girl would do...or it was a boy thing to do and I would look like I was one of those girls....She went into the Navy to have some fun, experience life and do some traveling. A once in a lifetime before she gets too old to do things before kids experience. Maybe she went to find a man?
Well If Jenny and Eric do get married I wish them happiness. This is all I really want for my kids. Whatever life throws at them to at least of had a hand at being able to say it may not be your thing but I am happy. IT is what I really want. SO for all my misgivings I wish her well. I wish her love and I wish her happiness. I LOVE YOU JENNY>

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The past few weeks have again been a bit surprising. First my daughter called from san diego with news of her engagement. We were shocked actually but she is engaged. I think that we will just sit on this news for now. His name is Eric. I do not have anything bad to say but will still just sit on it.

Room ONE

Well seeing how many of my friends and family have blogs I thought that I might try one. I am no good at journals as it requires me to remember but maybe a blog would be more fun seeing how I love the computer.
First I picked the Title Hotel California simply because, one I love the song and Two my life has always felt like I was more of a room keeper than anything else. I once thought that as kids aged that they would simply move out and move on but have also found this to not be quite correct so hence I am a hotel that continually has its doors open. Although unlike the song I would allow them to CHECK OUT! ha
This year has proven to be one of intense happenings. It started with my fathers passing in January and continued with my father in laws passing in july along with about 9 other people of various aspects of my life passing on. I was able to slip two pleasant trips in this year too. The first was going to see son number 3, Caleb, in Las Vegas. We had a nice, hot walk down the strip and I think an overall very pleasant visit. The next being a trip out to my friends wedding in October. My Daughter Rachel and granddaugher amandine went with me. I fell in love with the rental car, an SUV and just had an overall relaxing visit with my stepmother. The wedding went well too although there is never really enough time to do alot. You try not to plan for too long thinking you will run out of things to do and actually always run too short and try to shove too much into a day.
This year had a few surprises...one my oldest daughter Rachel has shown up pregnant with her second child. They have tried but had been unsuccessful in the past. Then my other daughter Jenny joined the US NAVY. I am not really surprised but kinda was too. She is happy though off doing her own life now. I hope that once she gets stationed on board a ship that she finds life even more thrilling. I know when we went to see her at bootcamp that both her dad and I would of loved to of been her starting over again.
We are now into the holiday season which means making room for the tree and doing some christmas shopping. I generally love the season and the shopping part far better than the actual day. I actually never really remember being overly excited about christmas growing up. I only remember about 4 christmassas as a younger child and one as a teenager. Now I know this sounds wierd but trying to group the season each year in my mind has not worked. I do remember tree lights and a few special presents. Maybe because I did not plan them makes them less to remember and trying to remember which aunt or grandparent got you what is hard too. There are a few pictures but not many. I heard just lately that memories are not made by things but my moments that hug your heart. So I guess from this that christmas was not a hug making moment in my life as a child.
Well I guess this is it for room one for now. Not really sure how I will divide up this blog yet and maybe it will be just random rants of my lunatic mind talking thrown in with a few pictures maybe once i figure out how to attach. Anyway for anyone out there wanting to skim around don't take anything too seriously or think that I am full of inspiration cause I am not. Just a place to write some thoughts down and remember.
Happiness always